Join me in Fredericton for The Walrus Talks!

Posted by on Apr 3, 2017 in Blog, Christian, LGBTQ, Talks | No Comments

A great shot taken during my artist residency in Vancouver. (VNB/Vancouver Biennale)

I always knew I would share my story publicly in some way, but I had no idea the places it would take me, the people I would meet and the ways I would grow. I’ve been privileged to speak on many stages across the country on the challenges and complexities of being a queer Christian woman of colour.

I’m excited to continue this dialogue when I speak at The Walrus Talks in Fredericton in April. From March to June, the Walrus Foundation is hosting national conversations across the country featuring 50 Order of Canada recipients and 50 young leaders.

As you may have guessed, I’m one of the “young leaders” and will be speaking on the intersections of sexuality, faith and race.

I’ve struggled deeply with these parts of my identity, silencing and hiding different pieces at various times. It has been exhausting to live a fractured life, wondering which part of me will be accepted.

As a result, I’ve spent most of my life trying to make sense of who I am. I no longer live in silence, and I want to encourage others to see the power of their stories and realize they aren’t alone in their experiences.

But it has been a deeply painful journey.

Journals

Journals filled of heartache and hope. (Jenna Tenn-Yuk)

I recently went through some of my old journals, revisiting a chaotic and challenging time in my life, including the first time I admitted I was gay: “It makes me feel sick to actually acknowledge this part of me I’ve been trying to hide and push away, but it’s eating at me. I can’t concentrate. I’m getting headaches and I just need to get it out. I think I’m gay.”

There were so many entries where I spoke about this part of me as if it was disgusting, broken and untouchable – as if I was disgusting, broken and untouchable. Shame and self-hatred filled many pages in my journals. I wondered if I would ever be okay with this part of me, let alone be proud and celebrate my sexuality.

My journals took me on a journey where I eventually got to witness healing, freedom and growth. One of those moments was sharing my story publicly on my blog several years ago: “I never thought I would get here. I’m happy with who I am. I’m proud of who I am. I’m free.

This was an important time where I needed to tell my story for me, to find and speak my voice again.

These questions and challenges have caused me to advocate for and with other LGBTQ+ people who are trying to survive their Christian and Catholic communities. Although I’ve seen many changes in schools, churches and the media, heteronormativity is still prevalent in our culture.

I’ve spoken to many other LGBTQ+ Christians who are struggling to make sense of their faith, sexuality and gender orientation. There are still many communities that aren’t affirming or open to having this dialogue. For those of us who are also racialized, intersectionality is deeply lacking. We aren’t represented in those spaces and our stories aren’t included in these conversations.

But we are here. We exist and we will continue to fight.

If you’re in Fredericton on April 24, I would love to have you join this conversation and hear from others who are doing great work around the country. You can get a free ticket here, and the talks will be filmed and shared online at a later time.

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